To get into my jeans I do a little routine of jumping, stretching, and twirling around combination. It looks strange but that is how it has always been even when I was younger. If you have been keeping up with my blog you can see that I am having trouble with how I feel about my body all because of a stupid number.
Here is how me feeling about myself gets worse. My roommate is in the room while I am doing my little routine and she goes, "You know you can buy bigger pants." I'm just like WOW did she really just say that to me?! I just said it would really kill my self esteem if I had to get bigger pants and I'm sure the next size up would feel baggy on me anyways. I just wanted to cry, she pretty muchh just called me fat. I just walked out of the room I was that mad. So let me tell you something. I don't look like crap in my jeans, I will fit into them better once this whole thing is over, and if you want to judge me I don't want to hear it. There have been so many negatives hitting me over these past few days, but I am going to take it out on the gym tomorrow. I ran/walked 2 miles today anyways after a long break out of the gym, so get out of my way negatives!
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